(Heads up! This is a post about the tragic events of 12-14-12. It is personal feelings pertaining to my own children and the importance of treasuring our children. I don't want to forget how this has made me feel. If it is too soon for you to read about moving forward, please pass on this post.)
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| These are my sweethearts on their first day of school. |
I have spent this past weekend in tears, as has most of this country. On Friday, the 14 of December, twenty little 6 and 7 year old babies were robbed of their lives. It was a horrific experience and I think that most of us were glued to the news, at least for a bit, until we couldn't stand to see anymore.
I was profoundly affected, having a first grader myself. It could have been any of us! It shouldn't have been anyone! And as I think of the events of that morning, I automatically think of our morning routine and I can't help but think what that morning was like for those sweet children BEFORE they went to school. Perhaps they were doing many of the things we have as we prepare for Christmas, each morning scampering from their beds, excited to look for their little well loved elves (as in 'Elf on the Shelf''). We have one and I am often awakened in the morning to a smiling face at my bedside exclaiming that "Scout" has been found! After breakfast and getting dressed (holiday socks have been a must with our sweethearts this past week), they are excited to break out the glue and add one more cottonball to their countdown Santa's beard. Then we round up our school necessities and don snowboots, snowpants, gloves and hats and load into the car. Then we wait in the carpool lane to drop our kids off at their school, we talk of the upcoming Christmas sing-a-longs and what I'm helping to do in their class Christmas parties and when we will be doing a little Christmas shopping. It's at this point that I think I have the hardest time thinking of those Connecticut parents, because as I give hugs and kisses and wishes for a good day and "please be good", they hop out of the car and excitedly exclaim to their little friends to wait up and I always watch them. All the way into the school. Their sweet little tiny bodies bopping down the sidewalk, giant backpacks bouncing on their backs. Often, hands clutched to a homemade card for their teachers. Awkwardly pulling open those giant school doors and then disappearing inside. This happens almost everyday. I know it's silly, but more than once I have pulled away from the drop off with tears in my eyes as I have watched them and thought to myself "They are so beautiful!". I know this is sappy and I know we are not perfect (more than once have I been grouchy to them on mornings when someone doesn't want to get going!).
But I think the entire country looked at our children a little differently this morning as we sent them out the door. I know I did. The delay in getting dressed, the squabbles over not wanting the breakfast that was served, the last minute frantic search for shoes, it all seemed trivial. There are twenty sets of parents who would love more than anything to be frantically looking for shoes this morning!
Two thoughts are most prevalent in my mind. First, thank your children's teachers! The thought did briefly cross my mind on Friday morning to go and get my children, to keep them here and
never send them back. But then I thought of the teachers who died with their students. And how much they loved them. And I thought of my children's teachers and how much they love them. And I knew that the greatest tribute to the teachers and those children is to
not be afraid, is to
not let the cowards who do this be winners by paralyzing the rest of us with fear!
Second, Morgan Freeman said it so eloquently when he said "Turn off the T.V." If we forget these madmen and their names and their faces, then we remove some of the fire that fuels people who do this kind of madness. If no one knows them, then the impact of what they do is for naught. Maybe then we will see less of this kind of sorrow. So I will not put his name in this post, but instead a link to the wonderful people who should be remembered!
Let us not forget them!
In reading about the sweet little babies, I was moved to tears by the comments from around the world. Everyone has been affected! We are all looking at our children with a greater love and appreciation. And although that can't heal their loved ones' broken hearts, or answer the screaming questions of "why?", perhaps knowing that the rest of us are more thoughtful, more grateful, more loving of
our children will bring some amount of healing that
their sweethearts did not die in vain, that those angelic faces have triggered around the world a greater love for the precious children who remain.
Heavenly Father, please bless those families. Hold their children. Bless the children!